Dummy Behind The Lens

2012

2012-02-15T16:57:00.000-08:00

This year is where it all ends, this is when i complete my diploma and finally get a work! seriously cant wait for it all to be over..havent been blogging much since we are busy with our final year project and presentation..we have our ups and downs, mostly down lah..its hard to do it when everybody else is doing something related and we are doing toys -.- well since our first idea was rejected..cant blame for having sucky one..just hope it can be done in time..and go through this shit.here are some pictures of our overtime in the workshop and after..

chinese new year doesn look so good

2012-01-19T23:16:00.000-08:00

came back yesterday, chilling with mameh, watched movies..woke up this morning im in hell load of pain, oh god. cant sit right, cant walk right, moaning and groaning while going down the stairs do get a glass of water..apparently i ruptured a blood vessel or something..cant work out for awhile =S sigh, when i get 5 days holiday this comes up..this year's january is the worst..well, like the kid with no slippers in india said 'its ok, the guy next to me has no feet' =P took some pain killer, i think im just gonna rest..

Piccies!!

2012-01-07T03:12:00.000-08:00

ohh yeah some piccies =) havent posted any picture for a long time.. -.-no access to camera..so here we go=)

This is a picture of my american guinea pig named dog dog xD

What i drew during break, half asleep, bored and waiting for ISIC class..=)

coming mid jan.

2012-01-07T03:04:00.000-08:00

School just started a week ago..and im back home now -.- alot to do with final project and shit..presentation is gonna be done by me, i think only 30% or less is done so far =S the mathematical part is so not my thing..been failing maths since form 3 =.=..alot of my classmate is getting cool ass smartphone after holiday..kinda jealous, but im keeping it cool =P chilling like a boss!! that phrase is so stuck in my head lol..hmmm gonna go to this bbq thingy later =S im kinda tired...we'll see bout that..i heard this thingy from my cuz, 2 bruneian kid went for a holiday to china with their family, age unknown...got kidnapped, have not been found since last month or so...IN BANGKOK!! WITH NO ARM!! slumdog millionaire?? only one of the kid was found the other is still missing..he was told that the kid was brought to bangkok, got one of his arm chopped off and was told to beg...hope they'll get the other poor kid too =(....thats a WTF for me..5 months and 13 days left till attachment and work!! cant wait to earn=))umm =) i wish i know what you want..

Happy New Year

2012-01-01T00:45:00.000-08:00

hype about 2012..who knows, happy new year =) nothing special this year..tommorow im off to kb..just great =S

aches all over my body..

2011-12-31T01:41:00.000-08:00

so...got this work from ajis to set up and pack bouncers up..B$20 per bouncer..and i did two...why? cuz its fucking exhausting..well atleast the money isn bad..start doing the bouncer work on the 30th which was yesterday..it all began at 8 in the morning, we were asked to meet up at lambak kanan, we start moving bouncer up into the van at 10-ish..i didn know bouncers were that fuckin heavy..ter-shit-shit mengangkat was what they said..first house was at mentiri, setting up the bouncer wasn so bad, and we made 10 bucks just to set that thing up, and i told myself this is not bad what are they complaining about, the second house was at jalan bebatik kulapis..near my place, the house lawn was abit small for the bouncer, it can barely fit there..but it has to be done..a little tweak here a little tweak there..we are done setting up for the day, it all ended at around 4-ish..went back home, was already exhausted took a shower and sleep it off..then we were asked to pack the bouncer up first off at the mentiri house..we started at 12midnight and it ended at around 2.30!!! it was raining and that shit was even heavier than when we set it up..i was covered in mud and cat crap -.-" i think..and we had to rush to bebatik kilanas and pack the other bouncer..we were already drained from the first bouncer, but alang2 peluk pekasam..lol bebatik kilanas bouncer packing up was over at around 4.30 am?? omg i was like a zombie moving around, was sleepy and tired..i just had to go to sleep..so i ended up at padil's house and just dozed off immediately after hot shower..uhhhh~~~ heaven =P not the best shower but yes..it was awesome..made 40 bucks in one day..it was ok, better than nothing=)

2011-12-24T09:45:00.001-08:00

you deserve to be happy =)

-.-

2011-12-22T13:03:00.001-08:00

leessang- for me, the answer is you cool song..lately im really into korean hip-hop =D

....

2011-12-20T02:34:00.000-08:00

shudn't have given me the reason to give up =)you wanted it, im giving it to you..doing it over and over just seem like you wanted it more than you wanted things to work out..yea he's listening to you, cud've done the same if i had the privilege of being there.. =] take care and happy advance birthday..may u be happy for all the time..i hope he's worth it..

=]

2011-12-14T05:39:00.000-08:00

sometimes =] for all of my time..

bridex oil fair

2011-12-14T03:55:00.000-08:00

Rahman txtd me at around 11 to 12..and i woke up around 11-12 =,= was lucky my brother woke me up or else...he'll be pissed off if i was still sleeping when my friends have already arrived.So went there..there were like 50+ booths from different oil related company, askd almost half of them and they all want fresh graduate...-.- so it was like useless going there..well atleast we know where to head to after my diploma..my first choice would be baker hughes, the cute chinese lady told us that when we graduate, they will take us in to be recruited as field engineers 2 years training and if they like the way we work...we'll be taken in =D second would prolly be halliburton ohhh they are so cool, it'll be great if i can get there too..and lastly maybe shell either bsp oil rig, or gas carrier...transporting oil to other country..1st officer would get U$ 12k and 1% of shell profit..how awesome is that $.$...thats what im told, and the cool part is i can bring my wife or 'wife' on board =P hahaha..cant wait to be graduated from jefri =Sahhh...so and so...it was ok lah today...wish things could be better =)

-.-

2011-12-07T01:38:00.001-08:00

was asked to get license this holiday, need to get use to 'delivering' stuffs now..ahhhh no more relaxing, well atleast i'll get to use the FTO xD hell yeah...i can go around without asking people to send me off and take me aha...my step brother got back from work offshore, and woke me up at 8am -.- asked me whether i wanna join him to miri..i was seriously exhausted, thot it was a dream, so i said no and doze off lol..when i woke up at around 12 -.- mom asked me, what did you brother want? and i go huh? balik sudah ya kan?well now im still waiting for that job vacancy at sony vaio =S .. hope they'll give me a call soon.

=D

2011-12-04T20:48:00.001-08:00

Was up early today =.= slept at 4am and woke up at around 8 just now, sent off my cv just now =D hope they'll give me a call soon, just cant be home for a month that'll just be really =.= btw this is a video i watchd recently, epic fail xD funny as shit..

=)

2011-12-04T07:43:00.001-08:00

Really boring night..gonna send my cv tommorow just hope i'll get em =) better than doing nothing -.-

Dilemma-Nelly ft Kelly Bonnie&Clyde-Jay-z ft.Beyonce Korean Version

2011-11-30T02:05:00.000-08:00

song ive heard from watching too much running man -.- since there isn much to do in hostel...when i heard this song, i thought it was nice and catchy, also it reminded me of the 'ghetto' love songs by jay-z and nelly =P running man ep 12 kang gary let ji hyo escape scene..

December Holiday is in.

2011-11-30T01:13:00.001-08:00

Wow its been 2 1/2 years now.. 1 more year and im out of college....ahh after doing tons of project work, assignments, revising its time to relax..1 month worth of holiday xD *excited* =.= gonna rest for a day or two, then i'll need to go out and get some pocket money for myself..its been awhile since i last pampered myself =P now that im free! i can do whatever i want to HOhoOHO..

Ahh still the same lah, i was over reacting on the last post..things you said isn exactly the way ur action potray, i dont say i love you and i want to be with you but when ur not around i start hanging out with that girl you specifically told me not to, taking picture with her, take her INTO my room what ive done with her in my room i guess you wont know will you..
Anyways its all over now, whatever you do with him isn my problem, and i couldn give that more fuck to let things that you wont ever understand to hurt....wait...trouble me again =)

My biggest mistake was? i thought i was the one that'll make you change your ways...turns out that i was another guy, that you call your 'boyfriend'
Nevertheless the happiest moment ive had was when you were around =] laughing our ass off..well thats just for me to keep as a memory..thank you

2011-11-27T01:25:00.001-08:00

I just keep telling myself to stop, just keep going, it isn worth it. But what do you know, i kept going around and came back to the same spot i was in the first place down, miserable, like shit.. i guess that makes you happy, to see how you're able to do this. let me tell you one thing, im down cuz i really thot there was something, something for us..im sad cause it has to be this way eventhough i made plans for it, i feel like shit cause i cant take back what i said..while you? ur not hurt cuz it has to be this way, ur just hurt cuz half of the blame was on you.

I know as a guy this is pretty sad and pathetic, but thats how much i used to love you. Atleast i made the right choice, now u can just take back ur lies and live through it. After i knew how 'truthful' your words were, im just sad that you've never change despite all that shit about how much you've given and all..=/

Say what you want to say, cause deep down you know this is what you wanted but you just dont have the guts to do it.. and i did it for you. Thank you for the lies

Bad Day

2011-11-27T00:13:00.001-08:00

like seriously no matter what i do, how i do it..sooner or later my laptop would eventually need to be formatted or some shit. im getting really tired of this, when i was doing my assignment around 7-ish last night, some how i got a blue screen, saying i have a hardware malfunction, and right after that..it became pitch black saying that window needs to be repair and it takes around an hour or so..i clicked the repair button, woke up around 12 to check on it.... IT WAS STILL REPAIRING!! like wtf..did i enter some weird time space that slowed things down?? it'll be good when she was here...but yeah..so i figure, the hard disk must be corrupted, so i formatted my external wd3000bpvt 350gb and use it as my laptop hard disk..installed the os into it, which happen to be not genuine =.=(thanks raymond) and now 27/11/2011 12.13pm im still trying to fix my laptop, downloading the driver and shit..sigh, and i still have loads of assignment to do due this wednesday..and i still need to repair my momentus 5400 6 250gb hard disk...

Recovering files from raw hard disk:
Stellar Phoenix Window Data Recovery

thank god i found this -.-"

Future Tattoo

2011-11-26T03:31:00.001-08:00

yakuza tattoo, sleeve design

snake sleeve tattoo

Nowdays in japan getting tattooed means only one thing; organized crime, thats true not only for japan as far as i can say, full body tattoo are expensive and artistic, in japan people getting tatts means the guy has 'konjyou' or guts. Now i have two tatts on my front shoulder and calf, since im living in brunei most old people said having tatts is 'bad' it shows that you're samseng lah gangster lah..to me its just a hobby, a painful one physically and financially =P but still the result is satisfactory..i respect the elderly opinion but, what to do.. dah buat takkan buang? =)

2011-11-19T08:47:00.001-08:00

As i predicted earlier, cant go to bed after all..kept sneezing all the through the night and having a major migraine. Been going through my old posts =) there were happy ones, and sad ones.. all in all they were good times..just hoped i could've written more..like daily..just to see what im up to day by day..and there was her =] most of the times it was just her..cudn say i dont miss her..bt things just got worse right after she's there..i knew things were gonna be this way and i know because of what...bt still i stayed to let it happen all over again, once bitten twice shy, what if im bitten more than twice and still try to endure it? does that mean im a retard? for hanging around still..thought of moving on, and i know its not gonna be easy=)mom told me that my brother changed his work..no more sleeping in the drain getting robbed while he's at it..he told mom to let me go to kl this dec..been thinking bout that, what im gonna do this december..find a work for about a week or two, then when its nearly Christmas or new year visit him there =)) what a plan..the problem is =.= will that plan work..its sunday today, gonna go back to kb later =S blurgh..after exams theres just no more motivation for me to go to class..well atleast i scored high grades for all my paper =D congratulation to me..changed my blog theme, changed the layout..its gonna be a new mejust my thoughts written here..for my future entertainment =D m sai fung sam, lou tau ngo gua chi lei =)

2011-11-19T05:47:00.000-08:00

rainy night...off to bed=)

long lost blog =)

2011-11-17T08:19:00.001-08:00

=) blaming me is always so easy even when we know whose mistake it was.

Puke it all out

2010-09-13T07:13:00.000-07:00

Oh hello again my blog, its been a while. I don't usually take alot of space to write in my blog and this wont be any different.

Ive been doing alot of thinking and, i think ive been taking everything lightly and it has affected me...now. At first you might thought trust is all you need to make things work, but what will happen when they keep giving reasons for you not do to so? Its not really the question i've been asking myself, that question is just too complicated for me. So the question is, is it worth it? Should you go any further? Do you think that's all? I've been squeezing answer that i wont be able to get, to a point where im exhausted and i don't think im able to hold on. So far what i wrote is pieces of what i have in mind, not necessarily giving any point to blog rather than to spill out and sort out the fragments in my head.

Dear lord, if you are there. Do take care of my family for they are the one i love.

Hoho~ yawn

2010-08-07T13:53:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile eh~ hehe.. am bored, baby girl is out to bangkok, and im insanely missing her. If you still visit this blog girl, COME BACK i really need to hug you real bad. Dont you dare say you don't miss me too --. or else. Well i cant 'or else' you cause i really need you to be with me right now lol, jangan kan luan mengambang.

because I miss you. - cinta mu. :p

2010-07-11T23:06:00.000-07:00

happy 17th Birthday Mervyn Yeong!

2010-07-09T22:09:00.000-07:00

hiii!I meant to blog this yesterday. But booboo kept me busy. Eseh. Since he wont blog, I SHALL!

HAPPY 17TH *-_-* BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY!

Here is what we did;
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Spent time together. HEHEHEHEHHE!I love you booboo!

better this picture than the other one, this one I looked pretty, the other one we both looked ugly..:P hehehhe

the second one?

2010-03-27T11:07:00.000-07:00

I know this was suppose to be like the fourth or the fifth one but >.<>

Ok was planning on blogging a lil earlier but, the wireless was down, and had to wait for it to be back on. Din want to dissapoint my baby girl, cuz i really love her and i really want to tell her that right now. I just hope she noes about that. Baby's back was hurt and im kinda worried, but i dun really noe what to do cant be helpful or sweet, this was our last night together after the holiday, was hoping to make her happy and feel special. Sigh all i can do i hav all this feeling for her but dun noe how to express it.

Sigh so by writing this blog i hope she cud forgive me what a useless bf ive been and accept me for who i am, for im trying hard to a really sweet or maybe the 'one'

Today was really exhausting, went for the paddy harvesting thingy at labi, im nt even gonna start on the journey there from sg liang. it was FARR... had to drove like 140-150 with mom's echo cuz i thot i was late, but when i was there the bus came after 8 something =.= shudve slept some more b4 going to sg liang. It was ok and i was really stinky =.= cuz was sweatin from morning till the afternoon at the paddy field. When i got back all i wanted to do was hav a really quick nap from 4-6 somethin _|-|o"

The night before that really wanted to spend the last day together with b like you know happy and all, but then din turn out that way cuz she was bored. Felt guilty cuz i did that, sorry sayang =(( i'll make it up to you.

Well i think i need the sleep now...

Night2 sayang, going off to kb esuk >.< are ="P">

sweet dream baby, hope i'll dream boout you a happy one, where u do what u promise me =P *paluk* love you loads

just as u askd me to=)

2010-03-22T23:14:00.000-07:00

today is nt a gud day for me, cant get my L license cuz i din hav my ic and passport with me, i burnt my leg, had to walk over my roof, to get mom's key, and i accidently kicked the drawer and it hurts like hell, just for a moment tho, tats today till afternoon. i know moms gonna b really pissed off cuz i dun hav my ic and passport with me and i cant get my L license. well atleast ive done my computer assignment, thats what makes me quite hyped up.

So my girlfriend askd me to blog, so i did, she wants me to blog 5 times before school re-opens. so heres the 1st out of the five blog.

Spent sometime with baby girl on sunday =)) it was~~ cant really describe it. I really love her thats for sure, im missing her each and every day, and i hope she misses me too. Wish she was here =(( so i can hug her and all, this blog is gettin really mushy2 =P i hope ur satisfied b*gigit* so i think thats all, dun really noe what else to do=P i cud say i love her a thousand times and never get bored and mean each and evry one of it. But that according to her would be cheating=P so i love you you baby 10000000000x *paluk* jan gauk2.

-to be continued-

1/5

Wasn so long ago. it was this--.

2010-03-11T05:16:00.000-08:00

Last post was on the 27th of Feb, wasn tat long.. but alot has happnd bad things good things and just to keep things balancd those boring things.. was told by the 'love of my life'( i know its a bit.. but yeah im keepin it that way) to keep this blog alive and updated, so untill i get my own camera or something i'll be updatin thins im just taking for granted this whole time (except for you sayang=P)

So i created a new rugby team for mkjb (hoorayy for that) i just love rugby and now its awesome that i get to make my own team. The name is still under consideration but we're thinkin of takin Ram ( mountain goat with big horns yea.. i thinkk~) even drew out the logo and its wow! =.= writin blog is like talkin to myself and its really -.-" .. but still its for my baby girl.

Holiday is coming!! yipee and i have tons of assignments and homework booooo! =.= maths english computer and MS to be exact..but the thought of spending my time with my baby girl, hehehe~ but still! i have to finish my work first.

Lastly.... i thot we're doin ok, a few bumps down the road and then suddenly we crashd, din believe it happnd again (sigh~) and i thot it wont ever happn again. I nearly lost my 'faith' both of em.. but then, after all we've been through.. i dun think that shud end thing between us, cuz i really love her, more than i cud ever imagind (which is really much, come to think of it) and wat happnd really got me thinkin and feel like im no different than them. Thats why i cudn give up now, i really need this to work, and i know and hope that she wants it as much as i do. And sayang please dont do that again, cuz i dun think i can handle another crash like that, or else it wud kill me and what we hav. Regardless of what and how much we've been through =((
Now things are ok, what doesn kill you only makes you stronger and it is true=)) in this case my love for her huhu~
ily ily ily ily thinking of you night and day (i hope u still hav that card) grrr..~~ kalau nada..gigit ne

wow panjang jua ne post ahh, i hope you're satisfied sayang, i noe i do hehe.. i hurt my back and my finger deep scratch and torn finger. its hurts and i miss you, has nuthin to do with imy plng but, THATS HOW MUCH I MISS YOU! grr*plauk* hehe

Blog for my baby girl..

2010-02-27T20:42:00.001-08:00

blue red white and blue, its amazing to know what i am to you, and yes i love you, mort de rire is dying of laughter and i know it makes no sense, tats because you make me go roll on the floor and say gigi gaga gugu.. hehe above all that, i really love you sayang. hehehe

bugger girlfriend, on the dashboard. Part 1.

2010-02-23T00:21:00.000-08:00

God!This blog is so deaaad!Soooo!!Imma revive it..So uhmm..whats not updated.. hmmm.. I have no idea!Cause I was just reading the old posts..hehehe!
Hii boyfriend.. *waves* so okay, I dont know if he even opens the blog..-_-"

AHH!I know, its national day today, and the "Dummy Behind The Lens" had participated.. He said, he made his friends do a heart shape with him in the middle for me..
awww..arent you sweett *wet kisses* *roll eyes* xP

Okay I dont know what else to blog about, but seriously!This blog needs life!It needs updating.. It needs the love of a blogger!-_-

Hahaha okay whatever. I wont type in anymore, useless things, cause its annoying me.. -_-" I know I typed it, but uh..its still annoying..So yeah... I hope the boyfriend will update soon!

~~i love you sayang!~~

=( my friday.

2009-11-27T08:59:00.001-08:00

woke up at 9, askd mameh whether she can pick me up and her so i can spend some time with her, waited till 11 sumthin, she came and got really mad cuz she needs to go work, i said sorry and nevermind, so i txtd adli, askin his whereabout at around 11.40+ he din replied, waited another hour and i texted him again, still he din text, at around 1 i texted mirul, he agrees but he wasn sure, need to take his car for servicin. I din wanna dissapoint her so i talk to her, and waited for mirul, at around 3+ mirul was on his way from the workshop to pick her up 1st, everythin was so hectic, askd her whether she can askd babah whether i can take her out or not, she was havin some problem askin babah, so i checkd her cdt, there's 70 cents left, so i tried to called babah, the first number din work, i tried the second one, i waited for babah to answer, sweatin like it was raining all over me. it cant be done, and babah din let her out with me. I was abit dissapointed, but i din gave up, at around 7 adli called said he wants to hang out with all of us, and said its been a while that we've gone out and chilld =) then mirul's friend call up, she wants askd mirul out to eat sushi at gadong. I wanted to spend a lil of my time today with her so i askd mirul whether he can take some of his time to send me off to her house. I gave him 5 dollars cuz i saw his fuel was nearly out. He gone back home to clean up and all, so i waited and tried to text her saying that i wud come over and see her, i cudn wait for that. at around 10 i arrived and 11+ i walkd away 12.30 mirul came and pickd me up. that was my day

=)

2009-11-02T17:11:00.000-08:00

speechless

=(( and..

2009-10-07T20:20:00.000-07:00

and i thot it was all so real, same feeling, different people. for all the thing i touch, you're just unreal.

-.-(sleepy)

2009-09-17T12:44:00.000-07:00

I love you b. Cant you see just that? I cant b who u want, but atleast i try to be the one to love you the most. I tried, not just by words. you know we keep havin the same arguements and in the end we would get back on track like nothin happend. Isn that what you taught me to do? Its really cold ere --. and m shirt-less. Seem like ive gain -.-" ALOT. like usual i dun write much. Thats all i want you to know..

oh yeah, i really miss you alot.

=|

2009-09-06T10:15:00.000-07:00

its been a while yea, this blog used to b bout the piccies i took, my passion and obsession towards it, but now it seems like i only have one to put all my passion and obsession to, its you baby=) if i could i would take you with me, if i could i would keep you beside me, its little thing that i disregard wud turn out to be the worse. I just wish i could hold it a little longer and hope thins would b ok.
I want you to know how much i miss you and how much u mean to me, and i know how u think words are nothing actions are everything, apparently i do less action. I wish i could do better, to just let you keep your smile early in the mornin' and when u go to sleep at night, and if i could, i would make u smile in your dream. Things i could do which makes my action seem so small.
I really regreted how i acted today, i really want you to know that, you know there's nothing more i'd like to do but to spend my time with you, but... =(( im really sorry for bein so 'little' for you, and ive seen the changes u've made, which made mine even smaller...

i really love you b~ with all i have could have in me.

nt a great day to start with a feeling like this.

2009-08-21T21:13:00.000-07:00

Don't say i dun try, no matter how hard i tried, how far i go, i still cant b the one for you, to be the special one. Cud never b so dissapointed in my life, only god knows, since that 'night' . This is not good.

Things in my mind.

2009-07-20T05:53:00.000-07:00

m sorry i know its unfair to you, i cant handle my own problems and let it go to our relationship.. had alot of thins in my mind that i cant sort out. m stressed doin nuthin ere, but to think of you and how much i miss you this is the third time im tryin to do this blog cuz it sucks. Do tell me if you cant take it any more. Din mean to say wat i said..

another sleep-less morning~

2009-07-15T10:58:00.000-07:00

Been spending my time without any or less sleep nowdays, its been bothering me alot, that i need to be so far away from my baby, sigh~ i hope she's doing well without me there.. ive been missing her alot*paluk* hope u were here for me to hug and all.

I love you alot Fatin Aisya.

=)

2009-07-13T06:27:00.001-07:00

Words thats thrown to me could hav a thousand meanings.

9th july'09

2009-07-08T10:59:00.000-07:00

90709 atlast lol a number that fits and nice fer my eyes to see=] another 4 days and its papa's 6 years anniversary, din even noe its been that long, seems like yesterday that he gave that hug, sigh.

Rest in Peace pa' i always remember you and keep u close to me.

Today was suppose to be the last day of the mkjb orientation, which i hope is true. It was fun tho, better than doin nuthin. Hav to remind myself to get the stuffs i need to get for my course. Another day has passed and m 20 = well its great and i think thats all i hav to say. =) nyt 19 and good morning 20..

Revenge Of The Blue Hippo

2009-07-07T06:08:00.000-07:00

Ok first of all, my title has nothin to do with my post -.- i just find tat really catchy xD hehehe, today's post is all bout my life weseh~ and duhh to me too. Its like this, ive just been accepted into mkjb and just done clearing thins in my room and got everythin settled.. 1st day was hot 2nd day was even hotter -.-" the heat was unbearable, but the people was cool eventhough there was no orientation like it used to b, so we're considered lucky, thats what they said.

The weather was/is hell, the class was even worse.

Ok on to the next thing, my baby girl =P fatin aisya. I want her to know that i love her, and i do miss her alot ugh~ the thot is killin me *gigit b, cium b, jilat b* i love you bah do u know, beh pajal ne, PAJAL! been trying hard to improve my english, since mine's the 'best' in the class boh~~ d anjungkan lang..hehe dun worry b i want to meet up with u jua x ahh, like hell i wud want it to b everyday. Wanna get physical with you =P hehe *paluk* love you~

specially for you=)

2009-06-06T14:20:00.000-07:00

at first b4 i left brunei i was afraid to leave you, was afraid cudn control myself, but then i realize i really love you b~ kept thinkin of you all the happy thins made me jump up and down ere, no1 else as pretty as u ere, never left my mind even for a second ^^ yay! congratulation fer me for doin that. I hope i cud bring all my frens back in one piece lol hahaha.. wait this blog is suppose to b bout u, and how i love you so much, my paranoia cud strike me and bring thins down to bottom of the worse but trust me, the only place you're goin bottom is my heart=P cawierr beh tu ahh hahah.. wantd to txt u and call mameh, but sigh~ alum beh kan bali line malaysia and thins iata =(( dun u worry b gonna b back in a jiff, m gonna spent more time with u like m suppose to, i hope uve accepted my mammeh=PP hehe beh mau kan b bnr2 ne usulnya hehehe*paluk* i love you bintin567 dun forget bout tat date ahh iata yang brought us together and gave me the once in a lifetime chance to hold u tight and to tell my real feelings to you^^ no more pokok2 thingy like we use to, no more huge hinting saying how much i want you and pls forget bout them, i hope i can make u happy like they do or even more=)) want you to b by myside while im on the right side of life. there's a lot you have to learn bout me b4 was this 'gud' kid and ur the part of my life that make me think its worth it to forget bout the past and to live in the present and think bout my future, altho u do tell me u dun like planning-.- udah beh kan berjinak2 sma my future planning thingy.

=)

2009-05-29T06:59:00.000-07:00

>=) never meant it to be this way, people change, time flies, it all flew away. Pulling it by the leg meaning it to stay, just to see it all be this way, all over again i drown in deep, calling you by heart screaming in despair. Im sorry all over, hold my hands lets go away.

it was ._. omg-osh

2009-05-17T07:33:00.000-07:00

wantd to get my 'vaccine' at ong sum ping today afternoon, but then this and that happend, we end up going to ong sum ping at 5 and got back home at 10 =.=" was like wtf. We can only get tat vaccine during office hour and today's sunday -.-" we stayed there anyway cuz nawy wanted to get his flu med. we waited, and waited, and waited, and waited till i cudn stand it anymore, went to get a fresh breeze of air lol..always hated clinics and hospitals, they always manage to bring out the bad memories. got online and talkd with my bro in kl, told him wat happend recently, nasib ada abang sekepala...

its time for rintihan hati=( today is nt a gud day for me, met some1 i never believed i could meet anytime soon, i dunno why, mayb its not time yet. b's having her exam tomorrow all i can do is put faith in her and wish all the best, bout tonight m sorry. its just, i need attention tonight and m nt getting any, i need this caring type of attention, which i know u cudn give me yet. m still here, handlin thins on my own, waiting for thins between us to b better. i love you, you dun really mention bout me in ur blog here i am, telling no one but me that im sad and i really need you tonight, to be who i needed u to be long time ago, cant force you, and i dont wanna make thins worse. =) night and good luck for tomorrow b.

=( it hurts deep inside, but it wont tell (=

2009-05-13T21:48:00.000-07:00

Things i wish i was, things i wish i would be,nt saying m nt getting enuf, the thought of it thats killin me.. =(

another day in my life

2009-05-09T03:00:00.000-07:00

hi~ welcome to another day of my life, m just tryin to kill my time by blogging, and i hope i wont b typing alot of rubbish. watchin mtv jk hits right now, and i dun get wat they're saying at all. All i want right now is to b with bebe, i love you b you know that right, no matter how anoying o irritatin i cud b at times my feelings towards you never budge, not even an inch=P huahuahua, bt seriously.. i miss you right now like alot, i hope i can meet u, like we used to 5 days a week=P ani sekali sebulan pun payah. i wanna hug u real tyt, i wanna mushy2 wif you=P like alot jua emmmM =P i just miss you tats all. saying it is useless, klau b ada baru tah b tau betapa teruknya beh rindu b*paluk* love you

pre-interview =P

2009-05-01T20:51:00.000-07:00

I know this is kinda late to congratulate myself for gettin the interview in mkjb, well wth~ CONGRATS. Now i can buy thins for u b?=P gettin all sort of shit from my cuz tellin me what kind of question will i b askd, din noe the question wud b so diverse and full of crap-.- what does me gettin into form 6 has to do with anything, f i din get into form 6 i wouldn met love =P yea its u b emmMM
so blah blah blah~ got the interview for marine engineering, din want them to think i got in there with the help of someone else, well thats what i believe, and hope it stays tat way -.- first choice was itb for internet multimedia development, was put on the waiting list so m going for marine engineering better future more interest =P haha.. Been thinkin alot cuz of this, people bugging me askin what m i goin to do with my future-.- jadi laki alim sja xD haha*koff* this blog was suppose to b bout me gettin the interview for marine engineering and how excited i m, but cant stop drooling over you lingering in my mind hehe, minta paluk b~~~~
this post is suppose to b long and only for pictures, my long lost interest-.- sigh need to get a camera and more picture of me and bebe ahh~~ bulehhhh b??

miss u alot b*paluk* phone's gettin numb, nda ia mau mendgr ckap beh=P

=(

2009-04-17T06:33:00.000-07:00

placing hope in a wrong place, take one take two, this is not a race
fake smile on a sad face, do this do that, was not how it is.
keepin in the anger, far away from pleasure, wishing thing wud change, not tryna act all clever,
open up my chest, take away the heart, doing tat all over, things would turn out rough,
appreciate wat u done for me, miss me love me i know it ain free. lol ajis jadi ko kan membuat beat ahh?? lambat ehh...

ada maksud ne cuma nda siap -.-" bila urang start malas iata kejadian nya ne.. haven took any piccies for a while>.<>

First Movie with B

2009-04-08T11:33:00.000-07:00

=) watchd fast and furios 4 with bebe tonight^^ the movie was boring but the night was awesome=P spent it with bebe and foods -.-" miss u lots b^^ and i love u.

When the time comes

2009-03-19T11:12:00.000-07:00

eyes closed shut, soul tormenting body. making thins simpler by acceptin death, the one and only option, to let go of the thins we love. may sound stupid cuz even i dunno wat m talkin bout -.-"
to my babu, ur presence will always be missed, may ur soul rest in peace. when the time comes, we shall meet again as a one big family.

b u noe how fast this heart beats when i meet u? and u noe how happy and slow u make this heart beat when ur around? iata tu nda tantu beh ulih b~ and thats what i call love. and for me every time we meet i feel like proposin u all over again. cuz this love i have for u goes deeper each day. and everyday when i open my eyes and wake up from my deep sleep, the thot of having of u as my girlfriend gives a new meaning to how i go thru each day. this is another nonsense from me, but it comes straight from the beating piece of flesh in my chest=P antam.

World! I declare Fatin Aisya HakMilik Penuh Mervyn Yeong Kai Bong a.k.a Bebeh! and i LOVE her. f u value ur head, keep it away from her o.O comprendo?! i know ur mad b but this is for the best hehe so i wont have to get jealous all the time huhu~

sheesh i miss u lots.

2009-03-01T07:32:00.000-08:00

yes i miss u~

Valentine

2009-02-13T11:21:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day i really hope i could be there when the time strikes midnyt >.< long="P">

Ily bebe, ur the special one and ur the one*paluk, cium*

biarkan bulan bicara-broery

2009-02-12T11:57:00.001-08:00

lagu yang baru ku download dari imesh

beh tulis panjang tapi blogspot spt nda menerima, apa kan daya puisi tak seberapa. hati b tak terbawa.

beh sayang kan b. dan sedang cuba memahami. semoga itu mencukupi ntuk cinta beh yang nda seberapa ani.

One of best loving moment of my life.lol

2009-02-10T20:25:00.000-08:00

diantara semua, kau tahu kau merupakan titik permulaan dan aku berharap titik akhir ku juga. malam ku melewati perasaan gembira ku dan juga rindu ku, senyuman mu, kegembiraan ku merupakan teman yang paling secocok sekali. tidak tersangka begitu perasaan nya walau selepas berulang kali aku merapatkan diri pada mu. ada kah itu cinta? ku berharap ianya itu. jangan difikirkan segala masalah, ianya hanya sementara. kau tahu perasaan ini takkan menipu, dan lelaki ini akan sentiasa mencintai mu =P

gambar ini akan sentiasa mengingatkan ku betapa bertuah nya aku. xP jan kambang.

gembira tapi muram.

2009-02-04T13:08:00.000-08:00

beh harap b masih dapat menahan rasa untuk melepaskan segalanya, andai b tahu apa yang sedang bermain dalam kepala beh. Kadang2 memang terlintas di kepala sesuatu yang tak memuaskan hati, tapi bila beh renung semula segalanya keraguan beh berubah, persepsi beh dan juga perasaan beh. Beh tahu, beh agak menjengkelkan dari semasa ke semasa. Beh cuba berubah untuk b dan juga untuk apa yang beh hargai dan berasa amat beruntung untuk memperolehi(hati b) tak pernah sejenak pun beh terfikir untuk melepaskan b, masa bersama b terasa amat pantas berlalu, setiap kali b hendak beredar beh pinta cuma seketika untuk tidak melepaskan b dari pelukan dan kucupan b--, beh tahu bahasa melayu beh agak ke'malaysian' sekurang2nya beh dapat meluah kan cebisan2 pikiran beh. Dan takkan dapat kita pahami antara satu sama jika hanya seorang yang mencuba, beh akan menyenlongkar hati b, dan cuba untuk memujuk b supaya segala resah dan masalah b akan dpat b percayai beh untuk dikongsi.

lelaki ini amat menyayangi mu, dan b sentiasa bermain di dalam fikiran beh*paluk* =) perasaan istimewa telah ku jumpai tika d sisi mu. xP hehehe

Tasek Lama outings xP

2009-01-16T08:27:00.000-08:00

Its been a while since the last tym i hold jeje's camera, one beautiful, before goin to work, i decided go to tasek lama in bandar with jeje's brother azry xD had fun, altho --. din used the micro lens earlier -.-" ko tu azry~ k less talk more piccies ^^ yay! i miss bebe alot at last, after keeping it in i can tell the whole world that I Love Her so damn much~azry and his photo shooting pose xPkiub~ missing b~jz go with the flow ahh b xP--, mun kan smua b sja..*koff*a random 1 lalalathere's more but uploadin it takes alot of tym -.- so mayb tomorow and b's coming back ^^ YAY! i love you fatin aisya. *koff*

am missin you.

2009-01-08T03:31:00.001-08:00

1st day in Villa Mauri.

2009-01-06T09:13:00.000-08:00

Got up early too today-.- took my bath bla bla bla~~ den me jeje nawy head out to pick ros up. Meet up with the other JJG-ians in pte, wanted to sort thins out with our certs and shit, we gave pinah a suprise and it was a gud one ^^ miss how we spent our tym at the back of warong T.T missing b already by dis tym.
Me and jeje had to chow, to get our briefing from Carlito(Mauri's manager) it was ok he taught us wat to and not to do as a waiter, wanted to do de kitchen work but den m still ^^ tat i got de job. still missing b
After the briefing me and jeje head back home so he could take his shower -.- i slept fer a while cuz was a lil exhausted from all the moving around.
Our shift start at 6 bt we came early around 5, cuz we din want to give another bad impression by coming late again -.-, it was ok bt a lil nervous cuz it was my and jeje's first time, jeje was unlucky cuz he tried to -.- errr.. he did a mistake(m tired now) luckly i din xD yay~ MISSING B! we done with our shift around 10.30 den we head out again to pick up nawy and mirul -.- and ate at nasi katok kaka =.= was a lil hungry. Got back home around 11+ bebe tried to call me bt i din noe it was her cuz i cant hear a thing she's saying T.T got into facebook to see the piccies min uploaded T.T missin b still
den got to bebe's piccies on her bday okeh dis ruind my mood and m kinda sleepy now, wanna upload sum piccies now. ^^ god bless btw JJG made some songs fer us to enjoy xD Dynamite and I Want You.

Villa Mauri here i come!

2009-01-04T22:48:00.000-08:00

Woke up early in the morning, around 6 =.= sounds of heavy and lil footsteps woke me up, spent my nyt in sengkurong wif my step sister. She wanted to help me to find me an opening at her work place, she said she would ask de manager first. Then jeje told me that we have an interview at 11 am --, we were late and we have another interview with Mr. Mauri at 2 --, this tym we came half an hour early just to be sure xD was nervous at first but then as he talk, i get to know that he's a cool and direct kind of guy with that italian attitude xD. Always wanted to be an Italiano xP, well thanks to jeje fer recommending xD now m gonna get pocket money fer me and the guys to go 2 KL yay! gota make sure i show him my true potential lol mayb i'll get a raise.

bebe flew away from me--, lol to thailand jan nakal2 d sana gigit karang. u know m missin u alot and i want u to know tat beh sayang b incase i dun get to chance to tell u tomorow k!*paluk*

new piccies and i miss her.

2008-12-29T05:50:00.000-08:00

de piccies was taken wif dbah 3 sumthin i dun remember.. it was futsal tournament and it was fun, a chance fer half of de jjg to re-unite =P so here it goes..and also piccies of me and ms.officialzzzZZZzz she used dis=.= dun wanna b left out and cuz aku sayang ia hehe jz a statement..

webcammin tym wif bebe..

My Thots

2008-12-22T02:32:00.000-08:00

Alot of thins with you innit. =P sayang youh mrs. official *cough*

Happy Bday Fatin Aisya.

2008-12-21T08:16:00.000-08:00

Its my mrs.official bday today and plannd it since last nyt~ wanna take dis chance to say my thanks to Jeje, Pinah, Mirul, Nawy, Belle(berbau=P) and Ajim, thnx for bein der and made it even more special, well for me^^, once a JJG forever a JJG xP lol nuthin beats frens like u guys thnks again. To b i hope wat i did made u smile, and i promise to make it even more special wen its der? xP Jeje and I r seriously xhaustd and all i can think of now is u xP and to hav a gud nyt sleep.

HaPpY 18th Birthday =) a smile means a thousand word and u made every word worth a while (dun know wat i jz said, bt to me it made sense)

de irony wif no laugh

2008-12-17T11:04:00.001-08:00

currently listenin to asheru mood swings, cant realy explain how i feel ryt now, but sumhow,in a way i feel deceived? i think? cant really make up my mind xP hehe feel kinda crazy forcin myself to smile wen i feel down, forcin myself to miss but in reality i wanna forget? things never seem so easy wen i put my mind into it, just get complicated and in the end wud prolly smoke it off and sleep. dis realy sux, wen u r told to believe and tat very word tat i believe on suddenly cracks and crumbles haha lol makin myself sound like an idiot again. will de thing is i am a fool wen it comes to dis matter, cant realy handle it well, wud only make a fool of myself and be laughd at. huhu~
shyt man i really feel like ughh~~ m sick of things like dis, wen i want to change to make things better I MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF! what the fuck! m kinda pissed strait up PISSED! dun ask me why cuz imma break ur face f u do.
FUCK! wanna talk to sum1 but every1 seem to have their own problems so dun realy wanna trouble dem with such a tiny problem huhuhu~ missin de old tym wen ders only de JJG and we do nutin but to entertain one another, all we do is be happy and no worries well maybe one or two but nuthin that we cant solve except for destination unknown*koff* could realy use sampoerna ryt now, din bought it jz now cuz m broke, y? CUZ THE MUTHAFUCKIN ********* -.- well cant think of a word so i decided to put in de stars xD last nyt de sky was a canvas to a million million gazillion shining stars it was sOooOO pretty -.- shyt man, now m talkin nonsense.. f ders anythin i can do to stop all dis wud give my all to end it.

se s. a.lan

2008-12-12T11:14:00.000-08:00

Setelah sekian lama aku cuba ntuk mendapatkan 'dia' akhirnya aku berjaya menjadikan dia sebahagian daripada hari-hari ku, tanpa ku menyedarinya kelakuan sambil lewaku padanya membawa padah yang ahirnya membuat ku menyesal. Apa yang ku harap dari diriku sendiri adalah untuk tidak mengulangi kesilapan lama, dan berada di sisinya setiap masa, walaupun aku(jasadku) tidak dapat berada di sana sepanjang masa tetapi aku mengharapkan dengan ketulusan kelakuan ku padanya dapat membuat dia sedar bahawa aku sentiasa berada di sisi nya tidak kira masa atau tempat, dan aku sedia mendengar segala rintihan dan masalah nya.

got tagged

2008-12-08T05:27:00.000-08:00

1. What’s the relationship of you and her/him?
= dibs my auntie and a part of de JJG

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?

1. beri beri angry gal
2. lively
3. caring
4. beri much wif sampoerna xD
5. sh loves de JJG hehehe i noe u do auntie

3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you.
= stop dwelling over de past xD haha never forget bout dis

4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you
= hugged me T.T wen i was down

5. If she/he becomes your lover, you will:
= hahaha dun dare to even think about it kna pija krng ulih c ajray

6. If she/he becomes your enemy, you will:
= abis tia mua ku panuh white heads and wud b down all de tym

7. If she/he becomes your love, she/he has to improve on
= haha stop pickin on white heads

8. If she/he becomes your enemy, the reason is
= abis sampoerna xD hahahaha

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
= ???

10. The overall impression of him/her is
= hahaha kaling lively

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
= i dunno kiut xD hahahaha cn become realy quiet at tyms

12. The characteristic that you think you have, is?
= pessimis ignore de spelling

13. On the contrary, the characteristic you hate of yourself is?
= sometimes i get very pessimistic.

14. The most ideal person that you want to be is?
= uish my dad lah xD

15. For the people who care about you and like you, say something about them.
= aku sayaaaaaaaang kamu. :D

16. 10 people you tag:
1. finah
2. kim
3. nabeelah khalid
4. kim
5. apes
6. OJ.ku
7. ajis
8. dhil do
9. 567.ku
10. jeje

17. Who is No. 2 having a relationship with?
= Zatie

18. No. 3 a male or female?
= uhh, tats a tough 1 xD heheh female

19. If No. 7 and No. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
= andang jua kami slalu sma2 wah

20. How about No.5 and No. 8?
= sama jua 2 jawapan ku

21. What is No. 1 studying about?
= =.=

22. Is No. 4 single?
=nope!

23. Say something about No. 6?
= nada brang lain kan d cakap xD hahaha adi c jeje

Atlast

2008-12-08T05:12:00.000-08:00

At last ive got de chance to upload some of de piccies i took ^^, whats up!! xD hehehe its been fun fer de past few days.. lepak wif half of de JJG and things, balik kampung.. m at aniq's crib btw hangin out wif sum of de boys heheh decided to take my tym to upload some piccies and tell my story.. well ain got no story so heres de piccies xD hehe

dauz, me and dhil at de mallin sweet memory of de ring T.T sigh

Depressin Nyt

2008-12-03T11:50:00.000-08:00

- Recordin a song with Nawy and Ajis
- Still thinkin of whether wat i did was ryt o wrong.
- Still want b to b by my sideT.T wich i dun tink wud happn anytym soon
- My job application isn answerd still.
- Worryin bout my JJG
- Still want b to be there on 6th dec.
its 3.51 am and im kinda tired from all de 'rappin' -.- and still thinkin of wats goin on between me and b. Sheesh its kinda hard when m nt connected to de net fer a while now. shud've read her blog on 2nd dec wen i knw we wud b in better term. well i hope it wudn b de way i expected it to b*groan*jz saw her blog tadi T.T and its all bout her ex's omg~ y all dis now? y cant it be in de future wen m a lil more confident of wat we hav now. bukan kan buat b risau atau malas kan melayan beh andang macam ani mun nda cukup tidur -.-
beh masih sayang b banarnya.

^^,

2008-11-26T16:43:00.000-08:00

urgh~ much thing happnd since the last tym i posted
- finish my a level exam! wohoo wud b de best thing tat ever happnd xP
- lost my ring
- got into an accident with jeje
- got my ring back 'mutated'
- currently looking for job, so any1 interested call me xP
- sayang b and b sayang beh jua xP
- having problems communicatin with my family.
- missing the party with JJG
and the most important thing of all is m missssssing my gula2, and i noe she does too hehe. y? jz cuz i noe she miss me doesn mean m vain ryt? it only shows m confident with the 'thing' we're having xP wont b long b till we can tell it to de whole wide world, nuthin special*cough*

I still cant believe finally we're done with our a levels, and ryt now m really hoping that i wud get a realy gud grades for it. Cuz f i dun -.- that wud b de biggest dissapointment ever. Dupont<- i dunno what this is, i accidently typd it out. *koff* jbutz got into b's private blog*paluk* sumtym i tend to think she's sweeter than me T.T it could be true still doesn i sayang her less*kirai* jz mean m less sweet. JJG mana party kitani?? buring hantap ku ne nada gathering ktani ne, jz make random gathering for example: bbq at the mall?? wud really like to see that happen. gila wah 2 years together and it seems like we've create a family. M sleeping over jeje's place ryt now and i think m gona crash again soon. m exhausted sry there's less piccies i promise more piccies when dibs upload it*hint*

random speech

2008-11-20T00:42:00.000-08:00

dikala bulan mengambang tanggal xx.12.08

menjelang berakhirnya peperiksaan tingkatan enam ku, akan ku bina sebuah keluarga dengan si ehem xD gurau saja mungkin akan dibina tetapi bukan dalam masa terdekat, keseronokan merasa kebebasan akan ku alami setelah aku melontar pen ku ke dalam tong sampah dan mendakap erat orng yang tersayang dan rapat dalam hidup ku xD WOHOOO!!! socio esok dan kebebasan selepas nya! hahaha post ini sungguh cawier kerana aku gembira xD cuz m lame and happy

Deepi-ing Time fer de JJG xP

2008-11-03T13:25:00.000-08:00

Was reading pinah's blog =.= i was like 'shyt she's right'. What if we don't see each other anymore? Each and everyone of us would have new life, new friends, new people to share problems with or mayb new brand of ciggs OMG! whatever happens please don't change Sampoerna, i'll give you 3 gud reasons why.hehe
1. she's been with us through good and bad time
2. would do anything to get her.
3. she's a label fer us JJG.
For example:-
stranger 1: JJG mana ehh??
stranger 2: ehh yang slalu isap sampoerna blakang warong ahh..
stranger 1: AHHH!!
Get what i mean? To the JJG wouldn't be who i am if it wasn for u guys, everytime m down u guys were always der to cheer me up, if i needed someone to talk to u guys wud line up fer me to choose =P every single one of you helpd in in one way or another. Couldn't ask fer a better group fer me to be in, i maybe the only ethnic minority in the group but u guys are like a second family to me. let me introduce 1st*kirai*
Finah: mama Nawy: bapa Dbah:auntie De rest of JJG: my brothers and sisters xD each and everyone of u are as important as the next one, no less no more. You guys are de best! next to Platoon xP
i have picture too jua x ah(jeling pinah)hehehe

bintang

2008-10-31T13:20:00.000-07:00

Ini kali pertama aku menulis blog aku dalam bahasa melayu, rasa lebih selesa mengunakanya.
Kebelakangan ni keadaan tak menentu, kepalaku pusing, hati ku rimas. Banyak yang ingin dikatakan, tapi apa lah daya, hanya inginkan yang terbaik buat masa ini, dan berdiam diri mungkin adalah salah satu daripadanya. Aku tahu perbuatan aku tu mementingkan diri, kalau aku luahkan apa yang ada pun bukannya ada orang peduli pun, memang tak pernah yang ada. Aku rasa aku dah biasa dengan layanan begini, mungkin sebab itulah aku bersikap sambil lewa mengenai hal ni, TETAPI masalahnya, kebelakangan ni aku...rasa tak tentu arah. Macam aku dah buat sesuatu yang mungkin aku akan ku sesali kalau aku berdiam diri, aku cuma nak kau tahu, mungkin agak susah. Aku..sedih

T.T

2008-10-28T01:19:00.000-07:00

history tomorow =.= ugh.. gud luck everyone and to 'mine' sayang b and u cn do it.

awkward

2008-10-24T08:41:00.000-07:00

a random pic i took, not so nice but i like it..

piccie i took at my mom's workplace..

i tink its orchid, din noe wat to do so decided to take a pic of it.
just anothr of my fav day..

drippin dawn

2008-10-18T13:12:00.000-07:00

m tired and m missing b~ its 4 in the morning and i dunno wat m doin -.- will b uploadin piccies soon i tink. i miss the JJG too sigh~ exam i near..

Fasting Month of September,,,(=.=)",,,

2008-09-24T18:35:00.000-07:00

Its nearly the end of september and exam is realy near -.- amazingly m nt as nervous as my cousins told me and i dunno why.. mayb because of all the problems that ive experiancd for the past two months and i tell u it was nt a fun 1..was depress for days or even weeks was lucky jjg was der and so was and is xP my 'addiction' , another problem came in last nyt.. wen i had to pay for exam, din told any1 in my family xcpt for my brother in kl, i knew he would understand and i don't think he has any financial problem(i know xP) heis problem is more the less like mine.. so out of no where my mom receivd a letter from skul -.- and miraculously SHE KNOWS!! -.- and m depressd even more, din want her to know cuz i don't want her to worry to much, she has her own problem and dun want to b another burden fer her, been carrying tat on her back since god knows when..talking bout tis jz makes me more depress -.- dun tink m gonna finish the story xD huhu...
So during the holiday
1. went out with the jjg o yea.. tat nyt de jjg decided to sungkai at tt blues, it was ok and was fun well duh, only wish b was der*cough* den we watchd 4bia and MAN IT WAS AWESOME!! HAHA was screaming like a lil gul~~in de cinema, well shud hav listnd to the guy beside me -.-(hehe jan marah kim) he was like omg, nda ku suka ne, ehh banci ku eh, ahh sial! sial! sial!, ehh bin blah...(kira nda mau liat lah 2) hahahah...i recomend tat movie to all horror phreak..ahh back to the story wen it was over, it was around 11 sumthin--. nearly midnyt, we had some trouble with some1 'omg m cool' type of guy, and it ends with a bottle of vodka and mirul's head.. man i was lost and confused, was worrying bout the girls, mirul and nawy.. and i thot it was a dream at first -.- cuz rachel was screaming like -.- i dun hav any comments on who started the fights and how it ends, m jz guilty i cant do anything to stop it from happening and how mirul has to take it all up fer them<- is tis ryt -.-" so ere's some pictures tat i wantd to post for a long tym =) Introducing dgn muka ku yg tebal My Addiction --, hehe
Ingatkan banyak lagi gambar -.- rupanya alum ku ambil dari dbah --. hehe

Down Memory Lane

2008-09-04T21:49:00.000-07:00

hehehe laughter is always de best medicine when m down, honestly right now m craving for FOODS! xP no specific 1 jz foods! oh yea back to my topic today, hehe got some piccies from babu dayang and i found dis realy old photo of me and my cousins xD and it was a funny 1 cuz m cute innit --.

oh yea HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAWY & YUNUS --. u guys r de best fren tat i cud ever have well ur in de JJG anyway xp.. well wanna point out tat things r goin jz AWESOME wif ling, b, buddy --. *koff* tats all so here's de pic..
hehehe~~from left sitin on bench kaka alai, kaka cheh, dennis, boi@azhar
down from left jonathan, raymond, me!! hahaha, and sis nora..--.

Boring Friday Afternoon

2008-08-21T21:13:00.000-07:00

It's friday afternoon and right now m waitin fer my mom to pick me up, gonna have my hair cut later... sheesh troubles me alot thinkin of what type of haircut should i get, ling2 wants me to go bald nawy said i look damn ugly wen m bald-.- wtf, the principle and deputy principle already gave me a warning and wants me to cut my hair.. WAT ISIT WIF ME AND MY HAIR DUN U PPL LIKE?? -.-*mumbles* last night was emberassing, din noe wats wrong wif me, i start typing crap wif ling2 -.-... and i tink she's anoyed with it, its jz tat its different having her close to me and chattin thru msn..mayb i miss her much sigh~ hope she won't b anoyed for long, i miss u ling.. wanted to take some piccies but den mameh wants me to cut my hair later..mayb tomorow i'll take some pictures with dil's camera, i am bored to death doin nuthin.. nt in the mood to study, since =,= de results jz came out.. m proud wif my ling2*CONGRATULATION*kelip* but still scratchd my lips -.- and u din make up to it<-WTF is tis??is tis right?
ugh-.- nt realy depress, nt realy kusut jz bored and missin her..

no piccies today^^, next tym mayb..hav a nice day

Keep It Simple but Lame

2008-08-20T09:28:00.000-07:00

Nuthin much to say, its been a while now since i last uploaded piccies with a lil 'tear the box up' instead of think outside of it-.- ok tat was lame..anyway enjoy..
Was bored and about to go to sleep.. decided to take tis 1

i find tis realy err... spacey =.=
omg tis is cool, too bad i cant zoom any closer -.-
It was a realy hot day, and de 'nature' was at its best --. huhu..jz wanna sound smart but end up lookin like an idiot -.-
my mama xD i find her very preetyy~~.. lanja sampur 2 aku puji arah public ne xP
i think tat's all fer my piccies, it was fun takin em and sure is fun lookin at em..enjoy~

Got Tagged

2008-08-19T04:51:00.000-07:00

THE GOLDEN RULES

3 Golden Rules
• state 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself
• The 10 people I tag are then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.
• No tag backs (:

Tend to grow sideways -.-
Suck at english but still passing it--.
Like to sleep naked muahaha*sometimes*koff*
Used to find some guys hot*rawr* xD omg -.- nt after i found my candy --.*dududu~*
My first tattoo is at the back of my leg -.-"
Hug and stick to ling2 most of the time wen she's around tat is.
I'm not like my father and brother, at times i think i'm an adopted child..dududu~~ but i noe m nt xD
Rooftop is my favourite destination --,
I like music but i can't sing -.-
Like jester,joker and some clown.. well thin scary clown yes xD not those circus clown -.- they're lame..

I'm tagging:
Fids, Daus, Khai, Meerol, Cheh, fEEQAH, Nurul, Jonathan, Suk Chai and Bryan.

End

2008-08-15T09:16:00.000-07:00

socio i suckd e.lit i suckd --. de only 1 m hopin fer ryt nw is eas gp and histry -.- wich i dun tink i wud stand a chance to score a realy high grade..well atleast i hav 1 more to go now, and tats on monday... eas sigh~
btw today was ok, went out and work out some muscle*kirai* hahaha-.-.. mameh jjg kajen said.. m fat WTF! my gula2 ganya pikir m nt hehe tats y aku sayang ia haha-.- omg i miss her..
k m gonna TD-ing wif padil now --.

sry no piccies mayb next post xD..si samut maukan gula2~

Happy Bday Duan& Mei Mei(Melissa)

2008-08-09T09:20:00.000-07:00

Today was Duan's and Mel's bday.. and dbah bought a chocolate cheese royale--. was pretty awesome excpt for hannef, blowing de candle out all de tym.. -.-" dun realy noe wat to say in ere except for HAVE A HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS YEAR GUYS i lap u guys always..haha and mei2 find de rich tauke bf asap.. koko broke already xP..
and u dy! *paluk* laike it... and its true.. xD so here's some piccies from skul..

behabuk~

2008-08-07T16:58:00.000-07:00

hehe..aku sayang kau..xp *paluk, jilat*

T.T

2008-08-03T05:52:00.000-07:00

last nyt was~~errr ok, miss de chance to give sir a toast.. end up chattin and @#$%^, today was ok, went out wif dil's camera and took a few piccies, mom was washing her car, while me hehe get bz wif de camera..adi was der too, insisted on me takin his picture and i did hehe..ders no picture tat caught my attention sigh~ but ders a few piccies tat made me smile xP, so here it goes...

i laike tis picture so its big! came across alot of big words-.- dis few days..dis is feets btw--. i know weird name

okeh lets start, from left sir najib right sir hadi and middle miss jesse xD haha menyusahkan diri aku ahh
tis was taken by me -.-" duh.. from left aizat nabs and apes my gang xDhaha
sweetest couple that night goes to me and my buddy xP hehehe sry guys.. but thanx fer de effort xPhahaha jk i lap u my dark chocolate and sil
preety boy and macho guy -.- aniq and fadil..dey were realy hungry tat nyt btw -.-realy realy

okeh tis was today--, this is my mameh, very preety raight *kirai* ok she said..
mameh: apakan gambar2 ne, tampar krng ehh --.(hehe a sign of love 2 ) xD haha

and he thought i was takin a picture of his slipper hahaha.. nah kawo majal tah ko lagi minta gambarkn xD,muahaha enjoy world my cousin dauz xD
m planning on doin a thematical post next tym xP i tink tats ol.. tenkiu

si samut lapar

2008-07-27T02:23:00.000-07:00

was broswin thru my old piccies and i found tis xD i find it cool cuz it looks like de azureus icon..
ku ketuk2 pintu, takde yang menjawab, ku sahut namanya, hanya angin yang menyapa..d mana kawo?? xD.. hahaha tat was random..and i tink de quality of de piccies m uploadin is gettin worse xD, wat do i care its mine and ur tooxP
took tis wif dil's phone, tis was adi's phone and i tink tat love thingy was given to him by his 'daling' xD haha...
tis is veery speciall..and it belongs to me, well at first it was hers wich was nt de letter M..but still coffee zone before goin 2 excapade and its mine xP
ahh it feels gud to upload yet another very inspirational piccies xP.. status: its natural si samut mencari si gula2

self-devouring addiction..

2008-07-25T06:17:00.000-07:00

none.. none bout me, hows tat for a 'change' .. sometimes i feel like *&@#!@(&! and so on, and de rest just lalala~~, is tis realy worth it?? should i give it a break?? don't tink tis is de right tym for me or @*!&@*#(@**phew* der it goes again..tis is useless, i need a camera =.= ... tis is very very very useless...i feel useless...evrything i ryt is useless... lalalala~~ de end

sorry ders no piccies, my inspiration left me just now.. m waiting fer her 2 come back 2 me.. pls come back i need u...make me happy wah! eish...lol blogging makes me feel like m talkin to my self.. tata..

Heppi Bday auntie...

2008-07-24T07:41:00.000-07:00

Happy Bday to my beloved aunty adibah nazurah.. all de best fer u=) stop pluckin out my black heads xP haha lol.. smile always. Hehe i know tis post is kinda late sry~~ hehe have a blast..

i Love..

2008-07-19T09:32:00.000-07:00

I like tis very much, was taken wen i was out at de beach but i din post it last week cuz at 1st din tink it was pretty.. but den xP.. all i cn tink about is paluk, paluk and mo paluk.. i miss her~so so so much.. jz got back from polo club?? watchd pteb go against gunners xD we won 4 to 1 xD*paluk*
plauk me closer ^^, tats all fer de pic..

paluk

2008-07-15T08:45:00.000-07:00

Ryt b4 i went to the beach was chatting wif dy --. jz want to point tat out.. apa kan ? sukati ku kan gtau xP...*koff*.. had a funny conversation wif dil tadi..we were playing games btw
Dil: apane bin, nda kan mati ganya dari tadi..
Me: ehh stress ku mcm ani ne eyhh!! shialll..
(pause)
Me: Nda apa, kuasa cinta akan membuat aku menang..HAHAHA!! =.=
Me: Aku ada kasih sayang memihak aku xD

HAHAHA...and i continues wif even more cornier lines.. biar tia wah english ku suck xP atleast i hav some1 wat do u hav ?? xD

here are some pictures at the beach..

me~~

clean part of muara beach..
dun tink tis is a pine tree =.="
==.
and my favourite! de most beautiful thing in de world.. tis is fer u*kelip*xP
tats's all fer my beach thingy..*plauk* i do..i always do

Hot Day =)

2008-07-15T00:09:00.000-07:00

Went out to smoke, but i end up taking pictures..here are some of my favourite xD..

Penyepit baju da...xD

Tri circle padlock--.

Water tap...dudud~~Tats all xP tengkiu~~m pms-ing VERY VERY HAPPY!

Listen Up World!

2008-07-14T09:49:00.000-07:00

hehe *blush*... hehe *giggles*kelip2* ohmaigawd*blush*kelip* happy birthday HM..

T.T down under

2008-07-14T04:22:00.001-07:00

pikd up de form for the photography competition with apes, took 3 xD more chances..during lunch went out to sanitation wif dbah, haneef( happy bday BOI!!xD) and apes.. sip a ciggarate switchd on de radio =.= man de song was depressing..come on play a happy song for me jz for 1 day =.=... faked everythin i cud while at skul, was ok but din made me feel better.. wanted to talk to dbah bout it, dun tink it was worth it.. how long wud dis take ?? i know wat apes wud say
apes 'move on paker' haha.. i know and tryin xD

My cute nephew Waie xD!
I know i focusd the wrong thing =.= but i still laike it.. was plannin 2 giv it to sum1 huhu never had de chance to.. So tis is for me xD
I guess tats all-.- sigh~

..

2008-07-12T13:45:00.000-07:00

the grass is always greener and the sky is always blue

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2008-07-12T10:16:00.000-07:00

just like that and its done in seconds.. wen mind and heart is nt doin things together its hard to decide whether its better to use ok or yes.. wen both of dem tried (i hope) so so hard to keep things together and all it takes is just a few line of words and poff ^^, i know ive used tis word alot cuz i noe ive done alot of mistakes, just hope u cud accept it one last time, m sorry.. i dun tink u wud care about tis, but i do.. cuz u made me happy most of de time, mayb u dun notice it but u do.. wen u call my name at school compound i act like i cudn hear u, i just want u to call me, m nt realy gud at describin my feelings.. and m nt tryin 2 seek sympathy from u .. i dun really use tis word with u but since everything's done i used to .... u.. never really seen u cry, but i wanna share everythin with u.. wud prolly laugh at myself wen m feelin ok and look at tis comment some other day but atleast i let everythin out tis tym without any hesitation.. tengkiu dy for everything..

well dun tink ders anything hanging anymore, dun tink the tree is even there now i love you*paluk*

--. sigh bad day~

2008-07-11T09:19:00.000-07:00

Not gonna say much =.= its a bad bad day -.- very very bad day.. here's some bad bad picture on a bad bad day...

Dil's hp and toy =.=

and yes the same one agen
Dbah's present ^^ tengkiu
Belts
I tink tats all =.= hav a nice day

9th July '08 very special day.

2008-07-09T05:06:00.000-07:00

wasn spoiled..by anyone in anyway, de day was perfect if i wasn so tired--. erkss.. JJG is de best group tat i cud ever ask for, haha been sayin tat for de past few days=D u guys are de best..cant realy explain how i feel..ders no picture taken, cuz i dunno wasn in de mood to take any i tink.. but still i lap u guys JJG for lyf =D..

Managed to take a few picture wif buddy like she wanted, dun realy noe wat she's thinkin -.- botherin me 'abit' .. well ain gona spoil de day.. few hours left,c kawan sampor is still ryt here wif me ^^.

BUDDY since 5/6/7 =P

Here are some picture i took wif dbah's sister aimi cybershot xD lol.. haven got de chance 2 use jeje's camera again.. m missin mrD50 and mrs D80...Jeje bawa wahh~~

This was actually taken wif dy's phone sony ericson cybershot xD de same 1 i used 2 take dy's fav pic.

Addition to my piccies..

2008-07-06T10:31:00.000-07:00

So far ve got some ^^ feedback =P..its late, and m kinda sleepy...jz finishd chattin wif buddy doin the usual thing playd uno, browsed some white gold wedding ring -.-" i'll get dem fer u dy xP.. Dy likes dis pic of me at muara beach, took it wif her phone tho, but still its the creativity tat counts kan*kelip*=D other than flower i like taking piccies of lil children too, find dem at them 'photogenic' --. how do i spell tat anyway?? so here it goes...

Bride's room(taken by azry) --.

This was de picture tat dy likes, i noe y u like tis pic dy.. cuz m innit ryt?? xP i noe lol..its 'vain-ing' tym xD our next picture will be post in ere dy =P

This picture was taken in the same shop tat the bottle of sugar was taken..Jeje took tis, find it kinda kewl xP.. I tink m holdin azry's D50..he taught me how to use dem cameras xP

Din noe wich belongs to wich.. but i like both of em>.0 find de kids cute..one was taken by me and de other one was taken by jeje...

26th June '08

2008-07-04T00:06:00.000-07:00

Tagged along with Jeje and his brother Azry when their father asked them to take some pictures for wadi and noi's wedding in KB.. Had nuthin to do so i gave their camera a try a D50 and D80, and hell yeah i had fun with it..The pictures are quite big in size, wud take me forever to upload it all, so i chose my favourite one and post it.. M new to this picture taking thingy, so b a lil friendly wif ur comment thankies...

Bottle of Sugar..sweeettt~~xP
random plant i 'caught' in KB
Candid! Azry and his cam
Akad Nikah is what they call i think..